Saturday, July 16th, 2005
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5:51 pm - "heartbreak in abstract"
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"heartbreak in abstract"
take me away from this place
(ive rode in on broken wings)
my heart has collapse inside me
(i start to choke and beg for air)
im holding on to all we had
(but your slowly letting go)
ill be waking up today
but i wont be next to you
this life without you
seems more like anesthesia
im going nowhere fast
(but i know how this ends)
ive bleed so many time for you
(and still i havent died yet)
i hope you watch as i fall
(you are the reason ive hit the ground)
ill be waking up today
but i wont be next to you
this life without you
seems more like anesthesia
ill be waking up today
but i wont be next to you
this life without you
seems more like anesthesia
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Thursday, June 16th, 2005
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12:34 am - the key to her heart
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Monday, June 6th, 2005
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12:04 am - my myspace
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Tuesday, May 31st, 2005
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1:01 am - sumthings ive figured out about myself...
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1) everyone thinks i look like travis barker.
2) im obessed with blink-182.
3) lisitenin to boxcar racer makes me all emo and sad.
4) im a camerawhore.
5) i cant write songs for shit anymore.
6) i like to wear atticus shirts.
7) i try to look like tom delonge but end up looking like travis barker.
8) i can be really emo at times for no reason.
9) i dont like being alone.
10) i act like i can play guitar/bass when i know i cant.
11) i suck at skating.
12) i need a job.
13) cutting myself was stupid to do and i never will again.
14) im a jackass at times.
15) people will always think im gothic when im not.
16) im scared of heartbreak.
i think ill stop there bc ill just end making myself feel like shit. oh wait i have one more,
17) im in love with jamie, and i know she loves me with all of her heart and i do too.
current mood:  indescribable
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Tuesday, May 17th, 2005
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10:11 pm - show me the way to bed, show me the way you move
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ok so today went by fucking slow as hell. but i was glad it was over with. i went to the bowling alley at about 5 and stayed until about 6 then i thought i go over and hang out with my wonderful gf. and i got to spend time with her with im glad i got to bc i didnt think i would be able to today but i did so yay! the around 830 i guess zak came over and the 3 of us hung out then around 930 he took me home. (best ride home in his car yet, hehe) and that was my day. oh yea tomorrow i cant wait to play sum ddr with jamie. its gonna be great even tho i know i cant dance or play the game to save my life but i dont care bc im with her. well thats it later. jamie<3
This room is bored of rehearsal
And sick of the boundaries
I miss you so much
current mood:  loved
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Tuesday, May 10th, 2005
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2:43 pm
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yep im still alive ive just been really lazy and kinda busy to update this thing. any how schools almost out i cant wait. i got a job at the bowling alley. im starting a new band since after my death didnt work out. well thats all i can think of so yea later.
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Tuesday, April 5th, 2005
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10:57 pm - "There's No "I" In Team"
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Well I can't regret,
can't you just forget it?
I started something I couldn't finish
And if we go down,
we go down together
best friends means,
well best friends means
And I've got a twenty-dollar bill
that says you're up late night starting
fist fights versus fences in your backyard
Wearing your black eye like a badge of honor
Soaking in sympathy
from friends who never loved you
nearly half as much as me
Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable ohoh
Well I can't regret,
can't you just forget it?
I started something I couldn't finish
If we go down,
we go down together
best friends means,
well best friends means
You never knew
well i never told you
Everything I know about breaking hearts
I learned from you, it's true
I've never done it with the style and grace you have
But I've made long term plans
based on these mistakes
Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable
Is this what you call tact?
I swear you're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
so let's end this call,
and end this conversation
there's nothing worse
(that's right he said, that's right he said it)
I swear, you have no idea
The jealousy that became me thinking
(that's right he said)
that you always had it way too easy
Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
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Sunday, April 3rd, 2005
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11:51 am - yea im back
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Tuesday, March 29th, 2005
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9:40 pm - LAST FUCKING POST
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this shall be the very last post bc im done with lj and all its bullshit and bc no one ever fucking comments on what i post and so im just donw if anyones reading this and care (i dont think so) drop me an email and ill hook u up with my other sites im on. later fuckers
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Wednesday, March 16th, 2005
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5:06 pm - "the feeling"
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burning out
crashing down
ending in tragedy
this is how im going out
it feels like
the walls are closing in
and i feel
the knife in my back
this is the feeling
of never knowing why
a break in the chain
your knees are getting weak
the car is outa gas
the weeks coming to a close
tell me why this has to end
it feels like
the walls are closing in
and i feel
the knife in my back
this is the feeling
of never knowing why
the clock is ticking
the end is near
and im choking on air
your kiss breaks my heart
just try and make it out alive
and it feels like
the walls are closing in
and i feel
the knife in my back
this is the feeling
of never knowing why
it feels like
the walls are closing in
and i feel
the knife in my back
this is the feeling
of never knowing why
of never knowing why
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Tuesday, March 15th, 2005
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9:11 pm
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How sad - this is what your life has
been reduced to - a single room apartment containing no more than a mattress.
The strings have been removed from the blinds and all the outlets have been
painted over. The television screen is streaked with blood smeared from your
knuckles as you were trying to punch it out but you underestimated its
strength, or maybe you just weren't trying hard enough. Startled by a knock
at the door you rise for the first time in two days to answer, but you can
only greet the visitor with one short statement. Hello my first name is
distance and I really don't care if I never wake up again.
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Friday, March 11th, 2005
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1:59 pm
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hey there. yes im still alive and kicking. ive been sick for like the past week. so i was to lazy to update but im not today, how lucky for u. well thats what i call an update so later.
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Saturday, February 26th, 2005
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7:26 pm - what i did today
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nothing much to tell the truth. i didnt go over to skys *tear* but i did go shopping. i got sum new clothes, a light, and clock for my room. well dinners here so thats it for now sea yea.
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Sunday, February 20th, 2005
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8:45 pm
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hows it go every one? pretty good here, just bored as always. as i talked to nate today and he said we probly will have practice on friday or saurday or even both. and me and him are gonna sit down one day soon and work on sum shit together. nates already working on another song, while im still working on "tulips". god im so slow, lol. anyway, today i hung out with kevin and we skated around then we went to skys house and the 3 of us walked to the park. hung out there for a while. then i walked sky home bc kevin went sumwhere. so me and her talked and listened to sum tunes. then i said i had to go home (bc i did) and so out of the blue, sky gives me this really big hug. so yea weird. but w/e. well i guess thats it so sea yea.
current mood:  content
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Monday, February 14th, 2005
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10:02 pm
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happy valentines day to everyone ESPECIALY TO CATHERINE. i miss u so much its crazy. today was pretty good really.
current mood: happy
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12:32 am - catherine jane merrill
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Sunday, February 13th, 2005
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8:24 pm - ill hold you like a broken wing and never forget where you took me...
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one more song for the mourning after. "take my life". its really really good. well thats all i can think of so peace im out
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Saturday, February 12th, 2005
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7:09 pm - "the mourning after"
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the mourning after
the partys over
beer bottles broken
smashed all though the house
i cant stay here
i cant stay here
so when i see you ill tell you
what youve been missing
what youve been missing
so when i tell you ill see you
that ive been missing you
the mourning after
the partys over
people passed out
throwing up on the floor
i cant stay here
i cant stay here
maybe if you took your time
you realize what once was mine
maybe if you could see
what all these things mean to me
so when i see you ill tell you
that youve been missing
what youve been missing
so when i tell you i see you
that ive been missing you
current mood:  excited
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Friday, February 11th, 2005
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8:40 pm
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practice is sunday and i cant wait. were going over to drews house and rocking it til the walls fall. lol. were playing 'in case of fire' first and that all i know. as for as new songs go, im working on another emo song right now, idk what if anything nates wrking on. but im bringing my camera sunday and taking sum video and piocs of all the action(us fucking around) and maybe a song or two. i plan on taking single pics of me, nate and drew and group pics of all of us. well until next time sea yea
current mood: excited
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Wednesday, February 9th, 2005
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4:00 pm - "a skyline" a song to catherine
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turn the lights down low, to let them know
that we mean it, ill never let you go
sunday night at the show, ill play this song for you
let the lights shine on you, its just you and me
my finger tips will dance across you lips
then ill surprise you, with a good night kiss
together we'll watch the sun slowly rise and set
but nothings as bright as the glow in your eyes
turn the lights down low, to let them know
that we mean it, ill never let you go
after the show, lets go out, anywhere, i dont care
just as long as its with you (its just me and you)
hand in hand, a skyline we trace
in hope of this night to never end
to never end
hand in hand, a skyline we trace
(turn the lights down low, to let them know)
in hope of this night to never end
(that we mean it, ill never let you go)
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